Thursday, October 31, 2013


A true friend confides freely, advises justly, assists readily, adventures boldly, takes all patiently, defends courageously, and continues a friend unchangeably.
William Penn

Your's truly and
Story time. . .

All of my childhood, I was a friend to almost no one beyond my family. I was personable and talkative about matters, but I simply did not want or look for friends. I did not build relationships with people. I remember my dad would say he did not like “People” and I would think, “Well, I do not either.”

Through my adult life, until the age of 24, that stayed status quo.

While I'd always had a lot to say, been fairly charming and most would say pretty charismatic if I knew you well, and while I've always wanted to help if needed and always tried to be polite, it was all very much an on the surface, acquaintance type life with any and all new people. If I hadn't know you from birth, that was all you could get, usually. I wasn't warm, to put it simply.

I never looked for friends. I did not want those ties. I cannot ever remember feeling a desire to socialize to meet new people. I wasn't even sure what a person would say to make “friends.”
What was the purpose? I said enough to be polite and never anything about what mattered in life. Enough to get by unless there was some subject to debate.

Then in 2007, everything changed.

The friends, my siblings, I'd had my entire life were suddenly gone. My brothers and sister were gone, and I was quite alone. I realized why I had never felt the need to have friends or anyone else close to me. They had always completely and totally filled that need we all have. They were so vital, so enough that there was no point in searching elsewhere. I had never before felt void of companionship, of a group to love and trust. . .

Gone. So quick.

And in no time, it seemed, my father was gone, as well.

Those that knew me had vanished from the face of the earth, and the person I was, had been. ..she was completely gone.

And there I was. . .now able to feel alone. To be fair, I wasn't completely alone - there was, at the time, a husband of one year and my 5 year old son, but still. . . how very alone I felt.

He was so new to my life and my son
. . . a little child, and everything that seemed so worthwhile suddenly had so little meaning, so little value. No one to reflect on the past with, no one to remember the good old days, everyone that held dear memories with, gone, and almost no one to tell those things which are important to. . .no variety of interests, no one to accompany me to anything a husband would never wish to see, visit. . .

And what was left was a person who was crushed and broken and unable to ever be whole. . .

I worked to find way to make things matter again. . .and it will never be the same, and yet. . .

I found that there were people out here. . .people worth knowing, people who care and are kind. . .
people to make memories with and discuss the mundane nothings of life and the meanings of life with. . .

The farm and rescue have given me room to develop and change and realize the person who felt no desire to talk and get to know people 7 years ago actually could want company and friendship.

I know it seems to some people that what I do is for others, and true enough, it is - that is my nature - but I would that people understand it is far beyond that for me. . .so much further than I could ever tell you. . .

and it has done for me. . .far more than anything else could ever have. . .

The ability to befriend other rescue folks and small farmers and make a new life, one worth living. . . in the face of a heap of rubble and ruin and suffering. . . is something I could never have imagined would take place. . .

and yet. . . here IT is.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Sustainable, eh?

We hear talk now and again about the lack of sustainability in this breed and that breed, and I have to roll my eyes a lot of the time. I hear what it means to be "sustainable."

I mean, I like the word. I like what is beckons us to become. . .I do. I find some interpretations humorous, that is all.

Often it surrounds how much are to give livestock and what to feed them - 

I hear it a lot about dairy animals.

I hear them say dairy animals aren't sustainable, but then, I find it odd that almost every person I ask that grew up in this area (a hilly area of WV) in the 1920s, 30's and 40's either had parents with a Jersey cow or a family member with one. Hmmm, then wonder how much more sustainable those folks telling me how dairy animals don't make sense on a homestead are than those authentic folks from way back?

That is where the comedy comes in.

While grain is often needed in higher production cows and at least some grain is needed in goats, everyone I know talking about sustainable livestock and small farm practices - even those who work exclusively with heritage breeds - at a minimum. . .offer their chickens chick starter when hatched and/or use heat lamps and/or incubators and/or quite a bit of non-handcrafted from items and many items not solely from their land to support their farming and livestock needs.

So where do we draw a line?

It is as if some really believe the delusion that livestock should thrive in captivity after thousands of years of domestication on small plots of land with no management, no care and just produce for us. . .that seems very greedy and unkind, really.

Good production requires great management, selection, hands on care and it requires interventions - just as we do not live without at least some items purchased in a commercial form, neither should we expect animals that have been domesticated and adapted (yes, including all heritage breeds) to husbandry to exist on our small plots of land like feral, unmanaged beasts.

What type of farming is that? It isn't.

It is as if some of these folks really want wild animals that require to real farming, no care. . .and to just reap free rewards. . .

Heavens - that will never happen.

If you're looking for carefree livestock - you're looking in vain.

Healthy, well bred, well managed livestock selected for performance with consideration given to ease of management and production, dairy animals included, can mostly all be useful and worthwhile and sustainable depending on your situation, family size, region and land size.

Common sense statements:

If you want milk for even a small family, it only makes sense to chose a real dairy cow or goat. Handling many dual purpose animals in an effort to get a small amount of what one correctly bred, health dairy animals can give is a waste of time, which I know none of us have. . .

If you want laying hens, bantams and ornamental birds aren't the right choice.

If you want meat goats, crossing your Nigerians and Pygmy goats with Boers will not really help your efforts.

If you want a type of pig to do well foraging to offset feed costs, research before making a choice . . .all breeds to not perform the same turned out on land.

If you are looking for a meat rabbit, do not raise Holland Lops and dwarfs. . .

If you're looking to raise your own Turkeys, remember the Broad Breasted Whites do not mate naturally, so you're barking up the wrong tree with those. . .

If you want a grass based dairy cow, look for lines that actually have the dams doing so with success. . .Holsteins are generally out, and remember, you need a lot of nice pasture that is WELL managed for that to work. . .hoping to grass base a cow that comes from even good grass based genetics will not work if you have only 3 acres of decent grass. . .having the land denuded for a fanciful, ill planned idea sure doesn't help anything.

So many factors decide what is sustainable - what is sustainable on 200 acres of wonderful pasture is NOT sustainable on 20 acres of WV hillside. . .

Do not get caught up in fanciful ideas of homesteading and farming.

Be realistic.

My father grew up in the 1920s in WV. He lived on a WV hillside farm with many brothers and sisters and was very poor. His family farm had chickens, a dairy cow, hogs and they hunted rabbits and squirrels and beat the ground plowing out what little they could grow to feed themselves and to store winter feed for the animals. Yes, they didn't leave these hardy Appalachian animals to make it on their own in the winter. lol. That is what it took to survive. They worked to keep those animals alive, and believe me, they didn't turn them out unmanaged like wild beasts. No one looked excessively fed, but they survived.

Remember what sustainable looks like - look up old Appalachian farm photos if you need a reminder.

Try to raise hardy livestock, keep that as a goal, but understand, there is no such thing as care-free/ maintenance free livestock, and in WV, with our terrain and lack of lush pasture and flat land, there is rarely such a thing as livestock that exists only on what grows here on our small bits of land.



Be thou diligent to know the state of thy flocks, and look well to thy herds. For riches are not for ever: and doth the crown endure to every generation? The hay appeareth, and the tender grass sheweth itself, and herbs of the mountains are gathered. The lambs are for thy clothing, and the goats are the price of the field. And thou shalt have goats' milk enough for thy food, for the food of thy household, and for the maintenance for thy maidens

- Proverbs 27:23-27

"I know of no pursuit in which more real and important services can be rendered to any country than by improving its agriculture, its breed of useful animals, and other branches of a husbandman's cares."

- George Washington